cam.pak@gaenak.com -___-

halo halo halo!
akhir-akhir ini tidak berkicau di blog karena sakit campak. sebenernya skrg blm sembuh, tp udah agak mendingan, makanya bisa online sampe malem (maksain diri).
haha, aku ceritain sedikit ya x)

hari sabtu lalu aku ke BP beli alat-alat tulis, trs pas pulangnya ngerasa gak enak badan. malemnya gak bisa tidur, tau-tau besok paginya udh anget badannya. trs aku ikut papa-mama-kakak ke dokter, kebetulan kakak jg lagi sakit.
awalnya gak ada yg aneh sih, tapi lama-kelamaan muncul merah-merah di pipi dan tangan aku. lngsg ketahuan deh kalo itu campak.
besok aku ulang tahun, dan sekarang masih jg blm sembuh. hiks.. ditambah lagi, hari ini si bulan dtg berkunjung. awawa lengkap sudah penderitaanku..... ><

semoga aja tgl 28 aku udh sembuh, biar bisa ikt ke animax cosplay competition! >A<

alice human sacrifice

lagu vocaloid yg rada jadul kayaknya. ini satu-satunya lagu voca yg aku tau, huhu. tapi gak bosen-bosen dengerin lagu ini x)
sehari bisa brp belas kali muter nih lagu. ikut nyanyi-nyanyi gaje pula! fufufu -^^-
suaranya miku hatsune emg manis, tapi aku lebih suka suara rin kagamine. hehe. pengen deh tau lebih banyak lg tentang vocaloid. tp males download lagu-lagunya =w="
yaudah lah ya -,-

ini ini ini liriknyaaa!

ALICE HUMAN SACRIFICE
- VOCALOID -

intro :
"Aru tokoro ni, chiisa na yume ga arimashita. Dare ga mita no ka wakaranai,
sore wa chiisa na yume deshita. Chiisa na yume wa omoimashita.
Kono mama kiete iku no wa iya da.
Dousureba, hito ni boku o mite moraeru darou.
chiisa na yume wa kangaete kangaete, soshite tsui ni omoitsukimashita.
Ningen o jibun no naka ni mayoikomasete, sekai o tsukurasereba ii to."

Meiko :
ichibanme ARISU wa isamashiku ken o katate ni, fushigi no kuni.
ironna mono o kirisutete, makka na michi o shiite itta.
sonna ARISU wa, mori no oku.
tsumibito no you ni tojikomerarete.
mori ni dekita michi igai ni, kanojo no sei o shiru sube wa nashi.

Kaito :
nibanme ARISU wa otonashiku uta o utatte, fushigi no kuni.
ironna oto o afuresasete, kurutta sekai o umidashita.
sonna ARISU wa, bara no hana.
ikareta otoko ni uchikorosarete.
makka na hana o ichirin sakase minna ni mederare karete yuku.

Miku :
sanbanme ARISU wa osanai ko. kirei na sugata de, fushigi no kuni.
ironna hito o madowasete, okashi na kuni o tsukuriageta.
sonna ARISU wa, kuni no joou.
ibitsu na yume ni toritsukarete.
kuchiyuku karada ni obienagara, kuni no chouten ni kunrin suru.

Kagamine Twins :
mori no komichi o tadottari   bara no ki no shita de ochakai
o-shiro kara no shoutaijou wa   HAATO no TORANPU

yonbanme ARISU wa futago no ko. koukishin kara fushigi no kuni.
ironna tobira o kugurinukete, tsuisakki yatte kita bakari.
ki no tsuyoi ane to, kashikoi otouto.
ichiban ARISU ni chikatta kedo,
futari no yume wa, samenai mama. fushigi no kuni o samayotta.

-_______________-

hari ini gak sekolah, berusaha menenangkan pikiran karena moodswing parah beberapa hari ini. yah you know lah kalo baca postingan yg kemaren-kemaren -_-
tadinya mood udah lumayan ok, sampe tiba-tiba niat mau beli cimol gajadi (ok, sensi bgt gua cm gara-gara ini jd ngambek), trs yah.. debat sm you-know-who (HALAH). tp akhirnya baikan. mungkin?
dirumah papa-mama perang dingin. dan kheshia nangis terus. duh, gak bisa cerita lebih banyak dari ini :(
eh postingan yg ini terlalu pribadi ya? haha yaudah lah ya.
rasanya setiap aku baru bangkit, tiba-tiba aku dipaksa "jatuh" lagi. sometimes life isn't fair.

boooo~ red -_-

susah-susah dapet libur malah wasting time sambil guling-guling di lantai dan ngenet gajelas begini. help dong, bosen banget-bangetan!! mati gaya dehhh -_-
tadinya mau ke BP nnton alice in wonderland sama diva gitu, tp gajadi. uh uh cedih. tau gitu nonton bareng kakak aja deh :"(

a backstabber? STAY AWAY FROM ME!!!

I hate backstabbers. ga ngerti kenapa mereka suka nusuk dr belakang. kalo perlu sini tusuk dr depan. aku sih lebih suka tipe yg jujur begitu drpd yg suka mendem ini-itu.
if you wanna be my friend, don't be a backstabber. stab my back, then I'll stab you in the front for exchange.
haha peringatan dkit sih. abis gasuka banget-bangetan.
APALAGI YA KALO COWOK YANG BISANYA CUMA NYINDIR LEWAT STATUS YM, HAHA. BANCI. you're not a guy, you're just a gay.
tapi yaudah lah ya, udah baikan ini. jd kata-kata diatas anggep aja angin lalu :p

anti-pencontek

dahulu kala, ada seorang siswi SMP yg doyan sekali mencontek. dia tidak peduli ttg pekerjaan rumah ataupun ulangan-ulangan di sekolah. semuanya ditelantarkan begitu saja, dan dia hanya perlu MENCONTEK.
tapi kemudian, dia pindah dr sekolah berisi anak-anak pintar nan baik hati yg selalu memberinya contekan. kini, siswi itulah yg jd sumber dicontekin.
yak, sayalah siswi itu sendiri -_-"

skrg jd ngerti knp temen-temen ngomel mulu ttg kebiasaan saya yg suka mencontek pagi-pagi, atau tepat 5 menit sebelum pelajarannya.
kini saya mengerti perasaan mereka >o<
rasanya kan gaenak gitu ya, udah susah-payah ngerjain, mereka tinggal nyalin gitu aja. dan paling gasuka lg sm yg CUMA nyalin, ga nanya cara atau apanya lah. gimana mau pinter kalo gitu?!
dan lebih ga tahan lg sama yg suka nyontek dr nomor pertama sampe akhir. ETDAH BUSET, USAHA LO MANA, MEN?!
zz emosi dah gua -_-

mending dapet nilai 6 tp hasil kerja keras sendiri dibanding dpt 10 karena hasil nyontek. BETUL GA? HOHO.

itu saja pendapat saya ttg pencontek.
saya mengerti betul karena saya dahulunya jg seorang pencontek, yg kini telah insyaf.

hampir mati karena alayers

as you know, tadi ke cbd sama chaca mau nonton lyla. hahanjing rusuh parah disana. etaugasilo sejauh mata memandang yang ada cuma alayers!!
mana gua diliatin mulu lagi sama mas-mas disana. eew?! GAH! pkoknya itu pengalaman pertama dan terakhir deh ikutan acara live musik gitu.
INDONESIA GITU LOH, MANA SIH YANG GA RUSUH PAS LIAT ARTIS? gua juga sih, tapi kayaknya kaki diinjek-injek sampe mati rasa, dada keteken sampe sesak napas, muka udh ga kerasa lagi ada dimana, uh... mantep. in a second I want to die!!!
#faktanya jauh lebih aman ikutan j-fest dibanding acara begituan. gamau lagi deh ikutan. dan gamau lagi dimanfaatin. lagian guanya jg bego sih, baru nyadar kalo dimanfaatin di detik-detik terakhir. dhara, dhara -_-

yaudah lah ya,
btw besok senin. atau sekarang udah senin ya? ha..ha.. -_-"
yah masuk sekolah :( ga enak bgt sekolah pas org lain libur! this is sooooo sucks!!
ck! coba boleh meliburkan diri -,-

gotta go now! write here later :*

HOHEEEEEEEEEE~~~

HAPPY SUNDAY MORNING MINNA-CHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAN!!!

but sadly, tomorrow is MON(ster)DAY!! :(((

oh lets just forget about it ==v

HARI INI AKU MAU KE CBD BARENG CHACA~ NGEDATE? GATAU DEH YAA 8D

*knp serba kepslok?*

masa pas aku itung jumlah uangku........ :O

lumayan banyak. tp karena mau beli ini-itu buat masa depan (baca: beberapa bulan lagi), aku harus menahan hasratku!! T^T

*HASRAT?*

IYEY IYEY~ MALES MANDI 8DDD

ganti template abs itu off ah. chuuuuuu~~~

Sentimental - CooRie

mune no utsu kodou tameiki mo somaru negai

mitsumeteru dakede atsukute

okubyou ni naru koi ha machigai sagashi

kimi no sono bukiyou na yasashisa

hitorijimeshi takute KARAKARA mau shizuku tachi

kakenukeru youni afureru omoi dake shinjite

itsuka tokubetsu ni naritai omoikkiri uketomete yone

irochigai ni mau kokoro no senritsu ha kimi no motohe to

hibiiteku dakishimete itoshiki hibi wo

oogesa ni warau sono tabi ni fureru itami

hontou no watashi itsukara

sagasou toshite tandarou usojanai noni

namida mo egao mo onaji dakene

kimi wo nakitsu keteku kotae nante aru no kana

oikaze no mu kou sakimawari shite mitsuketai na

kimi ni ima sugu aitai yo akubishite gomakasanai de

musunda kioku sakibbo ga KENKA shiteru futatsu no

kokoro moyou fukuzatsu ha suki no KATACHI ne

mitsumetai

kakenukeru youni afureru omoi dake shinjite

itsuka tokubetsu ni naritai omoikkiri uketomete yone

irochigai ni mau kokoro no senritsu ha kimi no motohe to

hibiiteku itoshiki hibi wo

oikaze no mu kou sakimawari shite mitsuketai na

kimi ni ima sugu aitai yo akubishite gomakasanai de

musunda kioku sakibbo ga KENKA shiteru futatsu no

kokoro moyou fukuzatsu ha suki no KATACHI ne

You Belong With Me - Taylor Swift

Lyrics to You Belong With Me :

You're on the phone with your girlfriend, She's upset

She's going off about something that you said

She doesnt get your humour like I do

I'm in the room, its a typical Tuesday night

I'm listening to the kind of music she doesnt like

And she'll never know your story like I do

But she wears short skirts, I wear t-shirts

She's cheer captain and I'm on the bleachers

Dreaming bout the day when you'll wake up and find

That what you're lookin for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you

Been here all along so why can't you see?

You belong with me

You belong with me

Walkin the streets with you in your worn out jeans

I cant help thinking this is how it ought to be

Laughing on the park bench thinkin to myself

Hey isnt this easy?

And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town

I havent seen it in awhile, since she brought you down

You say you find I know you better than that

Hey, Whatcha doing with a girl like that?

She wears high heels, I wear sneakers

She's cheer captain and I'm on the bleachers

Dreaming bout the day when you'll wake up and find

That what you're looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you

Been here all along so why can't you see?

You belong with me

Standin by, waiting at your back door

All this time how could you not know that?

You belong with me

You belong with me

Oh I remember you driving to my house in the middle of the night

I'm the one who makes you laugh when you know you're about to cry

I know your favorite songs and you tell me about your dreams

I think I know where you belong. I think I know it's with me.

Can't you see that I'm the one who understand you?

Been here all along so why can't you see?

You belong with me

Standing by or waiting at your back door

All this time how could you not know that

You belong with me

You belong with me

Have you ever thought just maybe

You belong with me

You belong with me

Brick By Boring Bricks - Paramore

She lives in a fairy tale

Somewhere too far for us to find

Forgotten the taste and smell

Of the world that she's left behind

It's all about the exposure the lens I told her

The angles were all wrong now

She's ripping wings off of butterflies

Keep your feet on the ground

When your head's in the clouds

Well go get your shovel

And we'll dig a deep hole

To bury the castle, bury the castle x2

Ba da ba da ba

So one day he found her crying

Coiled up on the dirty ground

Her prince finally came to save her

And the rest you can figure out

But it was a trick

And the clock struck 12

Well make sure to build your house brick by boring brick

or the wolves gonna blow it down

Keep your feet on the ground

When your head's in the clouds

Well go get your shovel

And we'll dig a deep hole

To bury the castle, bury the castle x2

woah woah

Well you built up a world of magic

Because your real life is tragic

Yeah you built up a world of magic

If it's not real

You can't hold it in your hand

You can't feel it with your heart

And I won't believe it

But if it's true

You can see it with your eyes

Even in the dark

And that's where I want to be, yeah

Go get your shovel

We'll dig a deep hole

To bury the castle, bury the castle x2

Ba da ba da ba...

Ignorance - Paramore

If I'm a bad person, you don't like me

Well, I guess I'll make my own way

It's a circle, a mean cycle

I can't excite you anymore

Where's your gavel? Your jury?

What's my offense this time?

You're not a judge but if you're gonna judge me

Well, sentence me to another life

Don't wanna hear your sad songs

I don't wanna feel your pain

When you swear it's all my fault

'Cause you know we're not the same

No, we're not the same, oh, we're not the same

Yeah, I've got friends who stuck together

We wrote our names in blood

But I guess you can't accept that the change is good

It's good, it's good

Well, you treat me just like another stranger

Well, it's nice to meet you, sir

I guess I'll go, I best be on my way out

You treat me just like another stranger

Well, it's nice to meet you, sir

I guess I'll go, I best be on my way out

Ignorance is your new best friend

Ignorance is your new best friend

This is the best thing that could've happened

Any longer, and I wouldn't have made it

It's not a war, no, it's not a rapture

I'm just a person, but you can't take it

The same tricks that, that once fooled me

They won't get you anywhere

I'm not the same kid from your memory

Well, now I can fend for myself

Don't wanna hear your sad songs

I don't wanna feel your pain

When you swear it's all my fault

'Cause you know we're not the same

No, we're not the same, oh, we're not the same

Yeah, we used to stick together

We wrote our names in blood

But I guess you can't accept that the change is good

It's good, it's good

Well, you treat me just like another stranger

Well, it's nice to meet you, sir

Well, I guess I'll go, I best be on my way out

You treat me just like another stranger

Well, it's nice to meet you, sir

Well, I guess I'll go, I best be on my way out

Ignorance is your new best friend

Ignorance is your new best friend

Ignorance is your new best friend

Ignorance is your new best friend

Well, you treat me just like another stranger

Well, it's nice to meet you, sir

Well, I guess I'll go, I best be on my way out

You treat me just like another stranger

Well, it's nice to meet you, sir

I guess I'll go, I best be on my way out

The Best Day - Taylor Swift

I'm five years old, it's getting cold, I've got my big coat on

I hear your laugh and look up smiling at you, I run and run

Past the pumpkin patch and the tractor rides, look now, the sky is gold

I hug your legs and fall asleep on the way home

I don't know why all the trees change in the fall

But I know you're not scared of anything at all

Don't know if Snow White's house is near or far away

But I know I had the best day with you today

I'm thirteen now and don't know how my friends could be so mean

I come home crying and you hold me tight and grab the keys

And we drive and drive until we found a town far enough away

And we talk and window shop 'til I've forgotten all their names

I don't know who I'm gonna talk to now at school

But I know I'm laughing on the car ride home with you

Don't know how long it's gonna take to feel okay

But I know I had the best day with you today

I have an excellent father, his strength is making me stronger

God smiles on my little brother, inside and out, he's better than I am

I grew up in a pretty house and I had space to run

And I had the best days with you

There is a video I found from back when I was three

You set up a paint set in the kitchen and you're talking to me

It's the age of princesses and pirate ships and the seven dwarfs

And Daddy's smart and you're the prettiest lady in the whole wide world

And now I know why the all the trees change in the fall

I know you were on my side even when I was wrong

And I love you for giving me your eyes

For staying back and watching me shine

And I didn't know if you knew, so I'm takin' this chance to say

That I had the best day with you today

slice of life :p

just gonna tell you something 'bout my life. if you think it's not important, not interesting, even boring, well then don't read it. as simple as that! :)

hm...

I'm almost 14 years YOUNG, I'm fat and ugly and stupid and clumsy. waittt, too many to mention if it's about my bad side :"(

intinya sih gada yg bagus ttg aku haha -_-

dulu, aku ini anak yg suram. suram. suram. suraaaaaaaaaaaaaam banget. bahkan mencap diri sendiri sbg anak yg ga bahagia. ejekan masa kecil kurang bahagia (MKKB) atau "mati aja lo" emg umum di jaman sekarang, tp buat aku, itu bukan sekedar ejekan. so be careful to say those words to me! or I'll get reaaaally angry xp

my life changed when I.........

when I........ I don't even remember -____-

I don't know since when I started to change myself.

yaudah lah ya, toh yg penting udah berubahnya ini, hehe. tapi nyatanya ko masih jarang sholat yaaa? hemhem kafir ya aku -,-"

what I search right now...

is a true friend. a best friend. a friend forever. a friend for the lifetime (bner ga spellingnya? sok sih pake bahasa inggris segala -,-).

sampe sekarang belum pernah ketemu. emg beberapa kali ketemu "temen deket" yg kukira "sahabat". but then I realize, we're not. hubungan yg bakal patah gitu aja karena masalah jarak atau waktu... itu hubungan yg dangkal. bukan maksud buruk jg sih ngomong gitu.

sahabat itu... dibutuhkan. from all people in this world, at least, have just ONE true friend. a friend that will always be there for you. and then find a love.

ONE true love, ONE true friend, all for ONE lifetime :)

I'll not try to suicide again. I'll try to do my best on my own. I'll try to keep on living, let it flow. because I realize, there are so many things I want to do while I'm still breathing. that's why... I'll smile and face the world.

haha postinganku bahasanya beraaaaaaaaaaaattt.

yaudah lah ya, sampe segini aja. bye bye, write again later :*

edit sana-sini o.O

kayaknya udah nih ngedit sana-sini nih blog :9
nanti ku post macem-macem ya hehe. mulai dr artikel-artikel ga penting, fanfic-fanficku yg ga laku, cerita keseharian yg ndablek... dll x)

kenapa aku ga pilih tumblr? well actually I do have tumblr account, but I don't use it. why? I forgot the pass, again =..=v
and anyway, I don't understand using tumblr! katrok tetaplah katrok!! HIDUP NDESO!!!! *??*

new blog -_-

begonya saya, lupa pass email yg lama buat blogger, jd terpaksa bikin baru. sebenernya ga harus bkin lagi sih. cm lagi iseng aja huehehehehe :p
kalo di blog lama isinya bagai diary yg frontal abis, disini ga ko. emg ada curhatannya, tp ga frontal-frontal amat x)
palingan lebih banyak copas sana-sini, termasuk fanfic saya sendiri :D
*baca: promosi fanfic*
haha, enjoy reading!